My Dad and Dementia

Dementia on cloudy background

My dad has dementia – not Alzheimer’s, the most common type of dementia – but dementia nonetheless. His dementia has slowly progressed over many years and is greatly exacerbated by his heavy drinking. I am genetic heir to alcoholism, fear it, and drink minimally because of it.

Because I am feeling pain and anxiety over my father’s health, yesterday I spent an inordinate amount of time formatting and reformatting a cut and paste of content from the Alzheimer’s Association on how to cope over the holidays. Rather than write from my heart and deal with my angst, I spent hours tweaking HTML code until my post visually pleased me. In that small way, I exercised control, for I am not in control of my father’s brain health. I cannot make him stop drinking. I cannot stop his brain deteriorate, and it devastates me, for I love him dearly.

Yesterday’s post perhaps offered you both too much information and too little information.  Too much information on coping over the holidays should you have a family member with dementia, for you could have simply clicked on the link to the Alzheimer’s Association article at the top of the post and received the very same content verbatim. Too little, for I did not speak at all. I was silent, hiding with my heart heavy, wondering what could be done to help my mother and father face this beast.

45 thoughts on “My Dad and Dementia

  1. dyane December 10, 2014 / 5:42 pm

    I was absolutely blown away reading this – I applaud you for writing from your heart about something so painful. Sending you my love – please know that I’m here for you now and always.

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 10, 2014 / 6:56 pm

      Thank you, Dyane. My pdoc stopped his group for the time-being (participation dropped off over the year), so Friday I’m seeing my psychogist who I haven’t seen in awhile (because I was doing group instead). Next week I’m meeting with a consultant about senior care issues.

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  2. abodyofhope December 10, 2014 / 2:17 pm

    I’m very sorry about your father. Thank you for having the courage to talk about it.

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  3. bipolaronfire December 10, 2014 / 2:17 pm

    Kitt, I am sorry. It is hell to feel powerless over someone’s destructive behavior. I understand. I wish I had some bright happy idea for you. All I can say is that I’m with you, Sister! ❤

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 10, 2014 / 3:43 pm

      The reality is that I cannot change his behavior, not as long as he is legally competent, which he is.


  4. amoafowaa December 10, 2014 / 1:38 pm

    Stay strong. That’s all I can say. A problem without a solution is no problem. Blessings.

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  5. Silent~Dugood December 10, 2014 / 1:32 pm

    Sending you a cyber hug, I take care of my Mom who has Dementia. Each day has challenges for us all, so my sincere prayers. Happy holidays

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 10, 2014 / 3:38 pm

      Thank you so much. I send you a hug and my prayers in return. God bless you and have a merry Christmas.

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  6. amommasview December 10, 2014 / 1:25 pm

    I know what you mean. My dad has dementia too… He kind of disappeared over the last 18 months. Only every now and then he is peeking out again and you kind of never know if it is the last time you see or hear from him…

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      • amommasview December 10, 2014 / 2:04 pm

        I guess it is “easy” on me as I don’t have to deal with the situation directly. My parents are in Switzerland and I am in Australia. Hard to get a bigger distance in between you… But it makes it hard, as the phone calls get weird. Sometimes he knows me, sometimes he doesn’t. Simetimes he can talk and sometimes he doesn’t find the words. He is also 93 already. But I wished for him to go the way he was, strong and smart and a charmer. And not kind of waste away…

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  7. WiL December 10, 2014 / 1:24 pm

    Have you ever considered going to Al-Anon?

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 10, 2014 / 1:41 pm

      I attended a couple of meetings when I was in my 20’s and read the literature. I get overwhelmed by groups because of my boundary issues.

      Most of my family of origin work I’ve done in individual and group psychotherapy. Been in therapy (as needed, with breaks) since I was 18. Plus, I have a masters in psychology and a license as a Marriage and Family Therapist, but haven’t practiced since I was 30 (51 now).


      • WiL December 10, 2014 / 2:03 pm

        Thats a bummer about the al-anon meetings. Working through the 12 steps with a sponsor gave me some great tools to use when coping with alcoholics. Also, just having the support of others who had been through the same thing was priceless. I’m here if you need an understanding ear.

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  8. WiL December 10, 2014 / 12:59 pm

    Could it be not your mother or father you must help face this beast, but yourself. Such a hard and painful thing to deal with. Both my parents are alcoholic, so I can relate. Hugs.

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 10, 2014 / 1:15 pm

      You are right. It is I who must face the beast. The beast being my own pain and powerlessness to protect them. My parents know how I feel about their drinking. In fact, my father remained sober during a couple of day visits – one last summer at my request so that his grandsons could remember him sober and cogent, and the night before our Thanksgiving car trip for my benefit. They know that the family’s drinking triggers me. I have said so. I have written so. They respect my need for sobriety and make their own choices for their own lives.


  9. thebipolarmama December 10, 2014 / 11:58 am

    I just wanted to tell you that I understand what you are going through. I used to be a CNA at a long-term care facility. I have seen first hand how it progresses. It is a truly unfair disease. If you ever need to talk, feel free to message me.

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