Have I Fucked Up?

Have I Fucked Up?

Okay, so now I’m wondering, have I fucked up? Am I not writing enough? Am I not engaging with my readers? How the fuck am I ever going to get anything done? It seems like I spend all my waking hours on the computer. Well, I actually DO spend virtually all my waking hours on my laptop, iPhone, or iPad. Still, I don’t feel like I’m accomplishing what I want. I’m not writing enough. I feel like a hamster on a wheel. At what point do I simply cut back? What do I cut back? What do I continue to do? Help!

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48 thoughts on “Have I Fucked Up?

  1. Bipolarbrainiac August 5, 2015 / 3:59 am

    Hi K, it was a few weeks ago that I realized I needed to set limits on email and all social media. I do think our blogging actually does get stuff done.

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 12:28 pm

      Without doubt. I just adjusted my email notification settings on Linkedin. I do not like to get notifications. They overwhelm me. I prefer to pop in and out of apps or websites, address my notifications via the app or website, then leave.

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  2. SuperMommyofTwins August 5, 2015 / 3:53 am

    I often feel this way until I pray. (I’ve read your thoughts on God and I respect your opinion. I don’t want to offend you but Jesus is the only way to God. John 14:6). The only time I experience real peace, it is supernatural – the peace that passes understanding, from the Holy Spirit. Honestly, we’ve all “fucked up” but reconciliation is always available (2 Cor 5:17-18). I pray you’ll receive that and experience peace today!

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 12:27 pm

      I do believe in prayer. I personally think Jesus and his message rock. I love Jesus, and I know God loves me, but I’m open to God’s manifestations everywhere. For me that means I can feel God’s presence in my life (at times). Contemplative, meditative prayer helps to allow God in, to allow God to ease my burdens. My “fucked up” statement was simply me frustrated that I’m too entangled in social media networking right now.

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  3. spykeyone August 5, 2015 / 2:33 am

    Bit difficult to say if you’ve fucked up when you haven’t actually said what you were trying to achieve? If you were running a race and didn’t train enough or chose the wrong coach and came last then you could quite rightly say you ‘fucked up”. However if you didn’t have a specific goal then you can’t possibly have “fucked up”. What’s your bench-mark for qualifying success? My goal (short-term) is to write every day. I’m achieving this (so far) so I haven’t “fucked up”. Even writing this qualifies. I blog every day and do a bit of my novel every day. That helps improve my writing and gets me a little bit closer to achieving my long-term goal of writing a successful book. I learn something new each time I put something down – even if it’s just the right place to put a comma. I would count this blog piece you’ve just written as a success. You’ve articulated your thoughts and exposed a little bit of yourself in the public domain. That takes courage and actually proves that you have confidence in yourself even if you don’t think so at the moment. Every cloud…?

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 12:21 pm

      I knew exactly what I was doing by sharing this. I wrote it as a brief journal rant in Word and then copied and pasted it into WordPress and made a quick graphic heading using Canva. But, taking time to think about what my actual goal is or goals are makes sense. Otherwise, I spend too much energy treading water.

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  4. Katinka August 5, 2015 / 2:30 am

    I’m not sure what your goals are for your blog. I want to tell you not to worry about it. Not to feel obligated or pressured to write. If you’re spending all day on the computer, not writing but wanting to write, maybe you could try writing away from the computer, longhand in a notebook or journal. I like those black &I white cover composition books. I’ve been working on a novel for years now, but I haven’t been able to write for a couple months. I don’t want to stress out over not getting anything done. But if I write something down in my notebook, I feel like I’m getting something done, even if it’s just an idea or a sentence or an image, even if it doesn’t turn into something I can use. It’s better than nothing. So even this one paragraph post you blogged is you saying something that matters and comes from your heart.

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 12:18 pm

      I pulled my journal out for just that purpose, but haven’t gotten around to using it. Instead, I’ve taken to writing in Word rather than directly in WordPress. There are pros and cons to both. My problem is my aggressive social media marketing, which really there is no need for. Why? Who cares who and how many people read my stuff? Isn’t it more important to create quality content than to endlessly connect over the Internet? How much of other content must I read and share? The questions go on from there…

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  5. Dr. Rex August 5, 2015 / 12:32 am

    Sounds like you need a bit of a brake! I know the feeling, been there … sit back, like away for a bit, recharge & come back. Best wishes!

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  6. Sarah's Attic of Treasures August 5, 2015 / 12:07 am

    Kitt, I’ve been feeling that way also. I’ve only been blogging for a few months. Once I got started, I couldn’t stop. I am still at that point. Blogging and learning have consumed me. I wake up and if I want to DO anything , then it is coming here to WordPress or my email accounts…..which at the moment actually mean the same things. Most of my mail, other that Park (work) related stuff, is from Bloggers. I took the last Blogging 201 course. I couldn’t stop reading comments in The Commons No sooner had that ended and Blogging 101 started. I haven’t let myself get as INVOLVED this time.
    That said, I still am on here way too much…….Not getting what is already on my list done…because I keep reading more post and finding more to do.
    I keep liking Blogs and have no time to read them all.
    I am loving it. Yet, I can’t physically handle it. I am not getting ANYTHING else done…..
    Health wise, I am not able to do much right now. I still need to do what I can. Not just here.
    I also read the comments. I agree with them.
    Take a break if you can. Refresh. Rejuvenate. Recharge.
    HUGS Sarah

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 12:07 pm

      Yes! There is a seeming endless number of EXCELLENT blogs out there. There is absolutely no way you can keep up with them all. I feel bad, for I’m not able to read people who read me. I’m overextended as it is, and I need to create, not just consume.

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      • Sarah's Attic of Treasures August 5, 2015 / 2:36 pm

        I understand. We can only handle so much of what everyone else has to say when WE OURSELVES still need to Write and Write and Write. More creating for you than for me . I just wanted you to know I read what you wrote . 🙂

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  7. lydiaa1614 August 5, 2015 / 12:02 am

    Kitt, I have wondered the same about my blog but I HAVEN’T been writing enough. I have been out ill so I haven’t been writing or reading enough. But I love your blog and want to read it! Remember, also, it is summer. Even in the electronic age people do take time away. Keep doing just what you are doing and don’t fret! I will be here and I know others will be too!

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 12:01 pm

      I think the bottom line is we SHOULD take time off of social media and enjoy the beauty of our surroundings and the people in our daily physical lives. Take care of yourself. Enjoy your summer. Hope you are feeling better.

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  8. badhalolife August 4, 2015 / 11:54 pm

    No u haven’t fucked up Kitt. I’m reading! I have the same probs with my blog.. I don’t have many followers and only get comments from ppl I know personally. It’s impossible to knowing what we’re writing is being read, processed, talked about or whether we are just writing for ourselves. Writing can be incredibly lonely and isolating. I like Eric’s advice … Go get some fresh air and disconnect for a little while. Even half an hour should recharge u a little. Take care hon xx

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    • Kitt O'Malley August 5, 2015 / 11:59 am

      Thank you. Today after I had my labs done, I treated myself to breakfast out and sat outside. Lovely. I have therapy today, which should be nice, and volunteer at NAMI tomorrow and Friday. Thank you again for your support. Visited your blog and shared your Chapter 1 post:
      B for Bipolar
      A for Anxiety
      D for Depression

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      • badhalolife August 5, 2015 / 4:30 pm

        Oh so glad u feel a bit better Kitt x thanks for sharing my blog! Hope you have a great day 😊

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  9. Zoe August 4, 2015 / 11:49 pm

    Sometimes disconnection is needed to see things from a new angle and remember what you’re here for. It’s so easy to get caught up with social media! Back when I used to do fashion blogging, in happier days, I lost sight many times of what I wanted and intended for my blog because I was so connected to keeping up with everything and everyone on social networks.

    Most importantly you have to ask yourself — what exactly is it that YOU are not satisfied with? Do you feel like you’re writing too much for us and not enough “for yourself?” Do you feel like you’re deviating from your original blogging goals? What were those blogging goals? Where have you failed in accomplishing that? Is it failure or simply fate that you should walk down this path? Have you held back from sharing or saying or writing about things in fear of how your readers would respond? Are you interested in exploring other topics beyond this blog?

    Ultimately, Kitt, we all want you to write what makes you feel accomplished and satisfied. We want to read what you’re willing to share with us. Whether it’s new research facts, your experiences, or sharing resources. Find the reason you started all this to begin with again and I’m sure everything will start falling into place!

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  10. Eric Johnson August 4, 2015 / 11:14 pm

    Kitt “Hampsters” O’Malley. It’s okay to take a break and recharge your batteries, unless your writing is charged by a USB connection. Take the time to relax, go for a walk, do something you have never done before.

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