Finally, I Cry

  
Monday, I joined my mother for music therapy after which I told her I had to take my son to school. I had a few hours before his class began, but I needed a break. Tuesday, I didn’t visit either of my parents. I cared only for my son and myself. Today I sit in the car as my son takes his one hour class, and I allow myself to cry. 

36 thoughts on “Finally, I Cry

  1. aitcheeevee December 9, 2015 / 3:26 pm

    Time for yourself is SO important. I’m sure you want to do all you can to help your parents, but taking time for yourself must come first. I speak from experience. I tried spending every day with my Mum after her stroke and I had a breakdown as a result. I suspect that right now you aren’t able to cry because on some level, you know people are relying on you, and perhaps if you really started to cry, you feel like you might never stop. I’m sending positive vibes your way

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 9, 2015 / 7:34 pm

      Thank you. That’s my greatest fear, that out of guilt I overdo it and end up hospitalized.

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  2. 10000hoursleft December 9, 2015 / 2:40 pm

    I hope you get some time for you, as hard as it obviously is and as much as your family are relying on you at the moment. It’s good that you allowed yourself to cry. What you are going through is pretty hard, but you are doing your best and that really is all you can do. I hope it gets easier.

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  3. Marie Abanga December 9, 2015 / 1:41 pm

    Let it flow Kitt. I recall the post I wrote on the demise of my brother titled Grieve out, I tried and it helps… I have tried grieving in and trying ‘so woefully hard to be super woman’, now I found this other way – am not going back that lane. Take it one second at a time… wish I could hug you, sure I can and am indeed praying for you all instead

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 9, 2015 / 1:56 pm

      Thank you, Marie, for sharing your experience with grieving. Thank you for your prayers. God bless you.

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  4. Running Elk December 9, 2015 / 11:47 am

    Sometimes the most powerful healing comes in what little space we allow. Always held in my thoughts and prayers for strength, as well as for your mother’s improving health, Kitt. xxx

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 9, 2015 / 1:54 pm

      Thank you. Your statement comforts and reassures me. More than you know.

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  5. Laura Droege December 9, 2015 / 11:25 am

    Kitt, I’ve been off-the-blogosphere for so long that I just now saw the news about your mom’s stroke. I am so sorry! Sending prayers on behalf of you and your family.

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 9, 2015 / 1:52 pm

      Thank you so much for your prayers, Laura. God bless you.

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  6. Susan Irene Fox December 9, 2015 / 11:25 am

    Oh, Kitt. So sorry you’re going through this. Praying for His embrace, strong and firm. As Dyane said, crying is good; it’s healing. You need to let go sometimes.

    Love you.

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  7. trentpmcd December 9, 2015 / 11:22 am

    Sometimes you just have to let yourself cry. I really don’t have anything to say except I’m think about you.

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  8. A Journey With You December 9, 2015 / 11:08 am

    Take the time you need. Do what feels comforting and healing to you. Your plate is so full. Your heart must be heavy, cry, cry, cry – such a powerful release – use it. All the best to you.

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    • Kitt O'Malley December 9, 2015 / 11:21 am

      Thank you. I will try to allow myself the release. Hard to do at times.

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  9. Sheri December 9, 2015 / 11:06 am

    I’m crying with you. I’ve been through something similar with my mother, I’ll keep you and your family in my heart.

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  10. dyane December 9, 2015 / 11:05 am

    As I wrote when I retweeted your link, crying is healing.
    I’m so glad you took a break; you absolutely needed it.
    Holding you and your tears in my heart.
    XOXOXOXOXOX – always
    Dy

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