Day from Hell

Recently my mother slammed the door on her speech therapist. She refused nursing care for herself and blocked nurses from seeing my father. Her behavior has caused both of them to be discharged as patients from home health services. No more home nursing visits, physical therapy or speech therapy.

My parents reside in a board and care near my home where they are fed and cared for by caregivers. They still are seen by an internist with expertise in treating seniors. They take their medications. And, I have requested that a psychiatrist see my mother.

Back to the story about my mom… When I visited, my mom restrained me and blocked me from leaving their room. My husband felt compassion for my parents and questioned whether they received adequate care (they do). (He supports me now and tries not to offer opinions or “fixes.”) I ended up feeling so out of control and overwhelmed that I posted this to Facebook:

I really need a friend right now. Feeling alone, isolated, misunderstood, on my own, unsupported, inadequate.

I received just what I needed – love and support. Here are responses I posted:

Today I heard that my mom’s home health care providers were discharging her as a patient because she refuses service and slammed the door in their faces. I’m working so hard to help and feel so helpless. Hard to just let it be.

I’m stressed out caring for my parents and for my son. Got to me. Just broke down. Feeling better but the weight of my responsibilities remains. Must let go.

Thank you, friends! Greatly appreciate all the support. My feeling isolated passed. You all helped. Spoke to my dear neighbor. In the midst of family crisis. Will be ongoing for a while. Stress can weigh too much and wear me down at times. Sometimes I throw up my arms and cry for help. Thanks for answering my cry.

All the love is loud and clear. The mood has passed. The stressors and triggers remain. Have to let go of what I cannot control.

51 thoughts on “Day from Hell

  1. TradeRoutz livingStyle February 17, 2016 / 5:20 am

    Hang in there Kitt. It’s so hard I know, but you are doing so well. Don’t let your parents situation push you back into depression love. Try not to. You are number one, remember that! xx

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  2. Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA February 16, 2016 / 8:11 pm

    Yikes, freakout city! Gives me the fantods to think of it. I’ve had a few horror shows with the P’s, can empathize. Yup, psychiatrist time!

    Meanwhile, make taking care of yourself number one priority. We all love you.

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  3. kbailey374 February 16, 2016 / 7:20 pm

    God love you – it is hard to know what you can or can’t do to help – some days it is too much and other days I can feel like superwoman. Just stay connected to your support and spiritual networks and I really do think that sharing is essential! You can’t carry all this alone! xoxo

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  4. Lizzy February 16, 2016 / 6:20 pm

    I am so sorry for the trials you are facing.

    I really need a friend right now. Feeling alone, isolated, misunderstood, on my own, unsupported, inadequate.

    Though it easy to feel this way, remember these words from Deuteronomy 31:8 — “The LORD Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

    Peace and love to you, my friend.

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    • Kitt O'Malley February 16, 2016 / 9:02 pm

      Without doubt, we are ALL loved perfectly and unconditionally. Thank you for the biblical reminder that we are always loved and never alone.

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  5. stockdalewolfe February 16, 2016 / 5:19 pm

    So difficult!! The situation!! Not on FB so don’t see anything you post. My prayers are with all of you. Caregiving is hard enough with one person!! Sending prayers and thoughts your way!! Big hug, Ellen

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    • Kitt O'Malley February 16, 2016 / 9:00 pm

      Thank you, Ellen. I don’t often share like that on Facebook, but I needed a boost and got it.

      Like

  6. Mary Griffith February 16, 2016 / 5:05 pm

    Hopes and prayers for all of you. You’re being a wonderful daughter to your parents doing absolutely all you can.

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  7. Michelle Toussaint February 16, 2016 / 3:56 pm

    Family can be the toughest and the most trying of all relationships, but you have support, and that can make all the difference. You are in our thoughts.

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  8. Just Plain Ol' Vic February 16, 2016 / 3:53 pm

    You are never alone Kitt. I am always in your corner rooting for you!

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  9. laurelwolfelives February 16, 2016 / 3:52 pm

    Sometimes support from strangers is the best kind. I have found that support from those anonymous strangers has made such a difference in my life. Take care and hang in.

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    • Kitt O'Malley February 16, 2016 / 4:04 pm

      Thanks, Laurel. What really helped, too, was that a neighbor read my Facebook post and met me in the front yard to give me a hug and chat.

      Liked by 1 person

      • laurelwolfelives February 16, 2016 / 4:08 pm

        Oh, how wonderful. I’m so glad for you. I do hope you can heal and deal with this. Sending hugs. 🙂

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  10. trentpmcd February 16, 2016 / 3:21 pm

    Family issues are difficult and by refusing help your mom does show she needs it more than ever. I’m sorry it was such a bad day. I’m glad some of your friends heard and answered.

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    • Kitt O'Malley February 16, 2016 / 4:03 pm

      I’ve had to psychiatrically hospitalize her once since she had her stroke. Now I’m hoping that she can stay with my father and receive proper medication. She’s on medications that should help, but now her stroke exacerbates underlying psychiatric issues and undermines impulse control.

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