Just got rejected by an online psychotherapist using LiveHealthOnline. Ouch. Slap in face. No doubt because of my bipolar diagnosis. I understand that online therapy is not always appropriate. The therapist in question may not have had the proper background and training. 

Still, it hurts, and I remain… I don’t know… Vulnerable… Feeling in need of support — specifically psychological support.

My psychiatrist, with whom my psychotherapist works, runs weekly group therapy, which I used to attend. But, I don’t do well in groups. My boundaries are poor. I take care of others and don’t get enough support for myself. I’m selfish right now and know that I need the undivided attention of a psychotherapist. I need some healing. Badly.

Honestly, my fantasy is to go on a therapeutic retreat. Something like a spa weekend, but including sessions with a licensed psychologist with expertise in bipolar disorder (which is a serious mental illness). Must maintain coping mechanisms. Cannot fall apart.

61 thoughts on “Rejected

  1. e May 31, 2017 / 1:40 am

    Hi Kitt… I am just seeing this one. How have you been?

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  2. jjjcampagna May 10, 2017 / 6:21 pm

    Perhaps, your boundaries are not poor. You are taking care of others while not receiving the care you need to maintain your positive mental and physical health needs. It’s not selfish to seek attention and healing, it is necessary for your own good. How can you help anyone else if you are in crisis? “Must maintain coping mechanisms. Can’t fall apart.” Absolutes seldom work for most of us. Please give yourself some room to maneuver. I empathize with you as I also have the same diagnoses however finding time to take care of my needs is imperative to my recovery process. One day at a time. You can do this.

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  3. mihrank May 6, 2017 / 12:15 am

    “Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see a shadow.”

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  4. Frances D May 5, 2017 / 10:27 pm

    Sending good vibes your way. It’s good that you know what you need right now – so many don’t.

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  5. vanbytheriver May 4, 2017 / 6:56 am

    Glad you found the help you needed, Kitt. And if you ever find that therapy retreat ??? Sign me up. You’ll have lots of company.

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    • Kitt O'Malley May 4, 2017 / 1:38 pm

      Just staying at a local motel. Not very relaxing with a view and NOISE of toll road.

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  6. kbailey374 May 4, 2017 / 2:56 am

    I do the same in groups. I have also done the same in life which has made me isolate a great deal from the human race 😦 I do have a very few good friends but even so, some of my friendships can be overwhelming!

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