Freaking Out

Both my husband and my mother have expressed concern that I am ramping up (becoming hypomanic and experiencing mixed emotional states) as I’ve started the Ticket to Work process. I have had trouble sleeping, my mind is racing, I’m anxious, and I’ve shed a few tears. I put in a call to my psychiatrist. Both my mom and my husband think I should start more modestly, perhaps volunteering or taking an art class.

Whenever I take a step outside the structure, responsibilities, and expectations of my family life, and try to take on some other activity, I become overwhelmed and start to fall apart. It doesn’t take much to destabilize me,

I’m kind of freaking out.