Category: Social Stimulation
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Another Late Night
A couple nights ago, or perhaps it was simply last night, I was up late, unable to fall asleep. Finally, at 1:30 am, I decided to check if I had taken my night time meds (generic Depakote aka Divalproex aka valproic acid and generic Benadryl aka long chemical name I do not care to look up).…
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Stepping Out and Meeting Up
Started going to group therapy and two writers’ group meetups the last three weeks. Not sure how much “work” I can take on right now. Attending group and the meetups is a big step towards leaving the isolation of my home where I care for my son and husband and going out into the adult world…
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Fill the Space with Words
The name of the Meet-Up that I plan to attend, a writer’s workshop, is “Sit Down, Shut Up, and Write.” Can I do so? When overstimulated by social contact, I tend to talk, to take over. Can I channel that into writing? Will I push people away with arrogance? Will I charm them? Can I just…
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Slowing It Down
Slowing it down, breaking it down into manageable bite-size tasks. Put off job search for now. Became overwhelmed. Feared hypomania, mixed episodes, and eventual hospitalization. Fear job taking over, not being able to set limits, boundaries. My permeable self, the self that enables me to empathize, is too soft. Not able to say No or…