Category: Intrusive Thoughts
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Yes, I’ve Been Violent
My Mental Illness and Violence Hi, I’m Kitt. I’m bipolar, and I’ve been violent. Mildly so, for the most part. Flipped over a table once. Been known to slap in response to being called a f*cking b*tch. Don’t do that anymore, but fair warning: don’t call me a f*cking b*tch. My slap is powerful, as…
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Thoughts Intrude
Originally posted May 3, 2015. Now a year older. Not hypomanic or irritable. Just exhausted, for good reason (too much responsibility on my shoulders weighing me down). Did a good bit of free-writing at OC Writers write-in yesterday. Plan to salvage some of it, to edit and post here, to edit and submit elsewhere. Primary…
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Thoughts Intrude
Thoughts intrude Throw plate in sink Let it shatter loudly I see myself doing it The image, the impulse is there There – in my mind No! I respond Turn left NOW in front of oncoming traffic No! No! No! Don’t do it Wait for the green arrow Yell at, argue with, my son, my husband…
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I, Too, Am Not Okay
Yesterday I wrote this response to Tempest Rose’s post It’s Okay for Me to Not be Okay on STIGMAMA.COM: I, too, am not okay, and I’m okay with it. Often other people do not understand what they cannot see. For many years I wondered, do other people think like this? Do other people have to…
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Obsessive Thoughts
We never really know the content of others’ thoughts, if they think in the same way as we do, in words, conversation, images, or impulses. When I was in my twenties, I sought and received psychotherapy for depression, but didn’t know I had bipolar type II disorder. High achievers, those with racing thoughts and workaholic…