Author: Kitt O’Malley
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Public Speaker in my Thoughts and Dreams
Imagine myself as a public speaker. Keep on seeing myself orating, speaking to others. I enjoy it. I am a narcissist. Besides, I’ve done it well. Two eulogies, one for each of my mother’s parents, were my most satisfying speeches. Brought people to laughter and to tears. Drama geek in high school. Won debates in junior…
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God’s Call
What is God’s call for me? What is my purpose right now? What should I be doing? As I took the first steps to enroll in Social Security Disability Ticket to Work Program, I began a discernment process. Is it truly time to re-enter the workforce, to begin preparing myself for re-entry, or should I…
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To Blog or Not to Blog
Last week as I started interviewing for part-time positions, I considered taking down my blog, worried that I would be found out and that prospective employers would avoid hiring me, fearing the worse. We hear of nightmares on the news, of mentally ill who did not receive adequate treatment and did unthinkably violent things. My…
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What to do?
Freaking out, ramping up, as I begin my part-time job search. Reminded: “Just because you can, doesn’t mean you should.” – Christina Harrington, Human Solutions LLC, Human-Solutions.net
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Ticket to Work
This week I signed up for Social Security’s Ticket to Work program. The program is designed to transition those of us receiving disability back into the workplace. I am doing so with trepidation, for the last time I worked, I overworked, pushed myself beyond my limits and ended up in the hospital. To re-enter the…
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True Love or Manic Episode
Love today’s Rhymes with Orange comic strip by Hilary Price! December 9, 2013
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Aftermath of Suicide
When in the throes of suicidal ideation, you don’t and often can’t understand suicide’s negative effects on those left behind. When I was eighteen, I thought my loved ones would be better off without me. My suicidal ideation was so intrenched that it was ego-syntonic — it was in agreement with my sense of self,…
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To Conform or Not to Conform
I always have had a beef with conformity, with hiding your authentic self to fit in with the crowd. Why not be brave and be yourself? Why not be different? Isn’t that what makes life interesting? As I have aged, though I still am very much Kitt, I find I have more in common with…
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Autobiographical Update
Today I added some autobiographical writing to my About pages. I describe the beginning of my struggles with mental illness and the sense of religious calling. For me, the two are confusingly intertwined, as I can describe some of my manic symptoms as mystical experiences and have found meaning in them.