Category: Mental Health
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Dancing to White Noise #flashfiction
Within the white noise of the fan, she heard music and she danced. Her mind arranged the notes. Her body responded. Music and dance made sense. White noise, not so much. The white noise bombarded her senses — too many notes. She picked out those that felt beautiful, that made sense to her. Her mind…
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Sick of It
Tired of writing memoir. Not just sick of writing about my mental illness, sick of living the same struggles day after day. Do not want to end my life. Far from suicidal. Just want to end both my symptoms and my son’s physical and mental health symptoms. I’m WAY over it. Sick of being sick.…
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Writing to Discipline My Thoughts
This morning I attended an OC Writers’ write-in. I haven’t attended a writers’ group in a long time. Been isolating myself and focusing on my son rather than my writing, rather than myself. Today, I left him home in bed, then left the meeting early to get him to class on time. When I got…
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Silent Lately
I haven’t written in a while, nor have I read or commented on others’ posts. I used to write brief reviews after reading a book. Recently, I’ve simply left stars on Amazon and Good Reads. Why? Because I simply needed to recover. Recovering not from an episode of bipolar disorder – though I do live…
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Diagnosing Bipolar II #DavidLeite #NotesOnABanana
Quoted excellent psychiatric diagnostic interview for bipolar II from Chapter 33 of David Leite’s Notes on a Banana – a Memoir of Food, Love, and Manic Depression.
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Thank You, Treatment Team
Assuming that my therapist, Brynne Lum, LMFT, was not available (she’s very popular), I called my psychiatrist to see if he was available. He was! Yay! Alex Michelson, MD saw me, listened to me, and reassured me that it sounds like I’m exhausted, which is understandable considering all that I’ve done in the last year…
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Rejected
Just got rejected by an online psychotherapist using LiveHealthOnline. Ouch. Slap in face. No doubt because of my bipolar diagnosis. I understand that online therapy is not always appropriate. The therapist in question may not have had the proper background and training. Still, it hurts, and I remain… I don’t know… Vulnerable… Feeling in need…
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Mind Spinning
Mind spinning In circles Like a hamster On a wheel Racing Round and round Going nowhere Going nowhere Too quickly To safely Get off Mind spinning Sick to my stomach Let me off This ride Right now Please slow down Please brake Cannot take it Anymore Maybe I shouldn’t Have had Two cups of Coffee…
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#AtoZChallenge: G is for #GirlsRock (an Interview with Mental Health Care Advocate Kitt O'Malley
Eli Pacheco, Coach Daddy, interviewed me for his #AtoZchallenge, G is for #GirlsRock post. Thank you, Eli! Eli rocks, too.