I’ve Been Quiet Lately

Quietly Taking Care. Writing & Doing Less.

I’ve been quiet lately. Out of commission. Taking it easy.

This holiday season brings tough firsts. First Thanksgiving since my father died in April. First Christmas coming up. My sister and I plan to remember him and observe our family Christmas traditions. We need each other. We miss our dad.

Seasonal affective disorder hit hard, too. As the days got shorter, I cocooned, became seasonally and situationally depressed. Seasonal depression, bipolar disorder and now my grief overwhelm me at times.

Taking care of myself….mostly. Seeing my psychiatrist and psychologist. Going to a grief support group at Jewish Federation & Family Services. Reaching out and asking for help, for support, when I need it.

SO IMPORTANT that you ask for and accept help. My insight into my need for help, reaching out for it and accepting it, has KEPT ME ALIVE.

When I was 18 years old and suicidal, realizing I needed help, asking for it and accepting it made all the difference.

Christmas Day

Xmas Stocking

So here I am on Christmas Day, at a loss for words. Recently I’ve been posting simple holiday sentiments on graphic images and content I’ve copied and pasted from year-end emails sent to me from NAMI and NIMH, or – in the case of To Conform or Not to Conform – content I wrote and posted earlier. Not much to share in terms of original content. Hopefully, I’ll come up with some original content soon, and I’ll repost some worthwhile old stuff.

Somewhat overwhelmed and physically exhausted. We’ve fought a stomach bug for far too long. Just as you think you are better, it comes back and hits you down. In any case, Santa stuffed the adults’ stockings with some yummy gourmet goodies that he must have purchased from Cost Plus World Market. I’ve already eaten my chocolate bar from the stocking. Doesn’t matter how sick I feel, I’ll inhale chocolate, even as I grow sicker and sicker as I consume it. Yes, I’m a chocoholic.