Category: Family
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At the Summit
My birthday boy (14 years old) and my husband at the summit of Mammoth Mountain.
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Gratitude
Tonight I am grateful for my son whom I love dearly. To celebrate his fourteenth birthday tomorrow, we are mountain biking on ruggedly beautiful Mammoth Mountain an ancient volcano lying beside the granite Eastern Sierras of California. The Sierra Nevada mountain range Ansel Adams photographed and John Muir wrote of and advocated to preserve. As I write, I sit…
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Motherhood While Depressed and Bipolar
Since I was eighteen-years-old, I suffered from symptoms of moderate to severe chronic depression. Until I was thirty, I coped with chronic depression using psychotherapy. When I suffered a severe breakdown at thirty, I sought medical help for my symptoms and was prescribed antidepressants. Before becoming pregnant in my mid-thirties, I researched antidepressants to determine which was the…
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Lazy Summer Days
Okay, so I’ve not exactly kept to my commitment to get outside and play, nor have I gotten any interior painting done. My son has played video games since he got out of school for the summer last Wednesday — his last summer before high school! I’ve taken advantage of his laziness and have fallen…
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Thank You Mentors
Not precisely Ten Things of Thankful, but I am using the theme of the Ten Things of Thankful blog hop as an opportunity to thank those who have mentored me in my spiritual and religious growth. I originally wrote this article, which you can also find under my blog heading What About God?, as a…
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Ramping Up
Have not been falling asleep on my own recently. Have had to drug myself, dosing myself with a combination of clonazepam, diphenhydramine (Benadryl), and a sleep aid herbal supplement. I chew the clonazepam and herbal supplement to get them to act more rapidly. Find myself up until the wee hours of the morning, intermittently reading ebooks and…
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Suicide Infanticide
Long, long ago When my son was very, very young I thought of killing myself But what about my son? I can’t leave him behind Well then, I’ll take him with me Oh, my God! That’s where it comes from That’s why mothers take their children’s lives When depressed and suicidal They do not want…
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Bad Mom
Bad mom Selfish mom Ineffective mom Permissive mom Bipolar mom At times, abusive mom At times, out of control mom At times, rageful mom She’s even hit her kid She’s even slapped her kid No excuse No excuse to hit a child No excuse to slap a child At my son’s request, I revised this poem,…