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Slowed Down My Mind

Aug 17, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Health, Hypomania, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mood Cycling, Social Stimulation, Triggers to Mood Cycling

Okay, so here’s what I did last week. My son & I got sick with the flu. The flu forced me to stop, to hesitate, to slow down my ramping hypomania. Instead of volunteering my time at NAMI and getting overstimulated by doing so, the flu forced me to stay at home. Honestly, I believe it…

Taking a Break

Aug 5, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Hypomania, NAMI, Triggers to Mood Cycling, Volunteering

Putting on the brakes and taking a brief break from social media. Limiting triggers to ramping hypomania by trying to unplug until next week. I will catch up to comments next week. Have a full social calendar over the next few days. Tonight out with a couple of friends to the Improv in Irvine. Tomorrow…

Have I Fucked Up?

Aug 4, 2015

in Blogging, Hypomania, Writing

Okay, so now I’m wondering, have I fucked up? Am I not writing enough? Am I not engaging with my readers? How the fuck am I ever going to get anything done? It seems like I spend all my waking hours on the computer. Well, I actually DO spend virtually all my waking hours on…

Dissociation, Daydreaming, and Mind Dump

Jul 29, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Hypomania, Mental Health, Mental Illness, NAMI, Triggers to Mood Cycling, Volunteering

Already I’ve lost my place and forgotten what I was going to write. As I went to save this as a Word document to my hard drive, I saw some organizing I had to do – files in the wrong folder. Got to keep my data organized if not my home or my mind. At least…

Burns.

Jul 26, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Bipolar Parenting, Discrimination, Hypomania, Mania, Mental Health, Psychosis, Stigma

As someone with bipolar type II (turns out that ever since I was hospitalized, my diagnosis has been bipolar type I), I know that my symptoms are less severe than others. That’s not to say that I do not cycle or that I’m asymptomatic. I’ve screamed at and hit my son. I’ve flipped the kitchen table and…

Thoughts Intrude

May 3, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Hypomania, Intrusive Thoughts, Mental Health, Poetry, Triggers to Mood Cycling

Thoughts intrude Throw plate in sink Let it shatter loudly I see myself doing it The image, the impulse is there There – in my mind No! I respond Turn left NOW in front of oncoming traffic No! No! No! Don’t do it Wait for the green arrow Yell at, argue with, my son, my husband…

Death, Grief & the Beast

Apr 22, 2015

in Bipolar Parenting, Family, Grief, Hypomania, Marriage, NAMI, Parenting

NAMI Orange County volunteer Melissa Nemeth passed on as did my brother-in-law Don. Grief that I denied myself now hits me. Now I realize how much compassion I withheld from my husband as I defended myself from pain and from being needed. My prayers go out to Melissa’s family and to my in-laws. The tears flow…

Nurturing Bath #1000Speak

Apr 19, 2015

in Compassion, Hypomania, Parenting, Triggers to Mood Cycling

Compassion – Nurturing – 1000VoicesSpeak.org As I desperately reached out in compassion for others this past 10 days, I’ve neglected myself. I fueled my efforts with hypomanic energy, all the while sick with gastroenteritis and caring for an even sicker son. Poor baby gets gastro really bad (badly). So here I address compassion burnout, nurturing others…

What Happens? Hypomania Happens

Apr 19, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Bipolar Parenting, Depression, Hypomania, NAMI, Poetry, Social Stimulation, Triggers to Mood Cycling

What happens when I over-involve myself in social media? (If you are viewing this post from my lovely website, look to the right – or if on a mobile device, to the bottom – see those many colorful icons – I’m all over the place and overactive.) What happens when I engage in a protracted blog…

Passed My SSDI Review (Whew!)

Mar 22, 2015

in Bipolar Disorder, Disability, Hypomania, Medication, Mental Health, Mental Illness, Mood Cycling, Psychosis

Spring triggers hypomania and agitation in me. As many of my readers already know, one spring over twenty years ago, tricyclic antidepressant misuse, seasonal affective disorder, and underlying undiagnosed bipolar disorder resulted in a week-long manic psychotic break. Today, I am inspired by bpnurse‘s post about her SSDI physical to update you on my recent SSDI (Social Security…

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