I have heard the siren song of alcohol and marijuana. Craved the quieting of my thoughts, the slowing down. Prescribed medications do help immensely, but I still understand and am wary of alcohol&#… Source: Siren Song
I am a gaping maw – a wide open gaping maw of unending unquenchable need. I feel as if I ever opened that maw, if I ever asked for help, if I ever showed my true self, my need, my…
Travel Journal from Las Vegas to Portland On my way, our way, to Oregon to visit family. Tonight driving out to the coast to stay at the Adobe. Tomorrow Jennifer is visiting from Australia. BBQ at in-laws to celebrate and…
My major achievement this week was to get out of the house TWICE for ME – not just driving my son to and from school or caring for my parents. Monday: OC Writers Write-In Monday I attended an OC Writers write-in where I…
Originally posted May 3, 2015. Now a year older. Not hypomanic or irritable. Just exhausted, for good reason (too much responsibility on my shoulders weighing me down). Did a good bit of free-writing at OC Writers write-in yesterday. Plan to…
Source: A Litany of Slightest Madness, by Beleaguered Servant I have no idea what I just wrote… I’ve always seen what isn’t there, And so, I’m under doctor’s care; For through my window eyes I see Far, far beyond reality I…
We plan to do some mountain biking today. When my husband and son do steep downhill runs (downhill mountain biking), I just have enough time to drop them off at the top of a mountain and pick them up at…
[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vNKxUZXbuOo&w=560&h=315] My sister made me promise not to drive and videotape myself at the same time because that is driving while distracted. There’s one problem with that, and that’s that I’m more distracted when I don’t articulate my thoughts.…
All three of us – my son, my husband and me – are sick with a virus of some sort – flu, perhaps. Exhaustion I already felt now worsened by deep fatigue achy muscles, nausea, and headache. My brain just…
[youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4V4YKeq88Qg&w=560&h=315] Note I’ve received feedback that my delivery in this video is too clinical and offputting. Forgive me. I’m trained as a psychotherapist. No doubt I use my training and jargon not just to understand, but to defend myself, to…